Everything is on its way to somewhere
[2]
&& for reasons others won’t ever understand,
she hides her feelings.
She paints on that pretty smile
&& makes it look like she's got the life every person in the world would want.
But inside, the girl is dying.
She is just waiting for someone to notice...
It's all just a disguise
[21]
I don't know why we all hang onto something
we know we're better off letting go.
It's like we're scared to lose what we don't even really have.
Some of us say we'd rather have that something than nothing at all,
but the truth is
to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.
[26]
The only way to accept an insult is to ignore it.
If you can't ignore it, top it.
If you can't top it, laugh at it.
If you can't laugh at it, you probably deserved it
[27]
The first thing we did in kindergarten
was get shown a picture of an apple and two oranges,
then pick out which ones didn't belong.
The first thing we were taught
was that being different is wrong
[28]
Earthquakes, hurricanes, even glaciers move.
So why couldn't he just look at me?
[34]
So let's say that “theoretically," I really like you,
&& "theoretically," even though it sounds moronically cliché and overused,
you give me butterflies.
&& just for kicks, let's add that (all in theory of course),
you may be one of the most wonderful people I have ever met.
&& hypothetically speaking, my heart beats ten times faster when I see you.
Do you think that you would supposedly
(and in the most theoretical sense) feel the same way?
[35]
I felt sad,
because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways,
they can't be fixed.
&& this is something that nobody ever tells you when you're young.
&& it never fails to surprise you as you grow older.
&& you see people in your life break
one by one
[36]
I’m the supreme grand master, of being dead without dying.
[39]
If you see me walking with someone else
it’s not because I love them,
it’s because you weren’t there to walk with me.
If I fall in love with someone else,
it’s not because I wanted to,
but because you weren't there to catch me
[40]
Isn't it ironic?
We ignore the ones who adore us,
adore the ones who ignore us,
love the ones who hurt us,
&& hurt the ones that love us
[41]
I understand that scissors can beat paper, [41]
&& I get how rock can beat scissors,
but there's no frickin’ way paper can beat rock.
Paper is supposed to magically "wrap around" rock, leaving it immobile?
Why the hell can't paper do this to scissors?
Screw scissors, why can't paper do this to people?
Why aren't sheets of college ruled notebook paper constantly suffocating students
as they attempt to take notes in class?
I'll tell you why, because paper can't beat anybody.
A rock would tear that motha up in about 2 seconds.
When I play rock/paper/scissors, I always choose rock.
Then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper
I can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say,
"Oh crap, I'm sorry, I thought paper would protect you."
I don't ever want to forget what it was like before you
or how it would be without you.
I don't ever want to forget our first kiss or our last touch,
or let a day go by without telling you how much you mean to me,
how deeply I love you, and how much I need you.
I don't ever want you to doubt the way I feel
or how much happier I am
because of you
[42]
If you want something you've never had, [43] I really missed you tonight. [44]
try doing something you've never done
I missed talking to you,
knowing that you get me.
&& every time I talk to someone else…
it just reminds me of how much they don't Somewhere deep in your heart
there's someone that you're dying to forget,
but also living to remember
[45]
There comes a point in your life [46] This aching of mine won't go away, [47] [48]
when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix things.
It’s not giving up,
it’s realizing you dont need certain people
but sometimes you have to ignore your own pain,
&& help someone else through theirs The only thing keeping me here, is not knowing where else to go
no matter how many different masks I wear
[49]
If you want to know where your heart is,
look where your mind wanders
[50]
I know you for your quirks. [51]
The way you smile.
The shape of your face.
The way you say my name.
The difference in your laughs.
The difference in your smiles.
The faces you make.
The habits you have.
I know you for the little things.
Surely, that counts for something, right? The one thing I'm scared most about right now is that I'll lose the one thing that makes my heart skip a beat every second of the day.
Having him there to hug, to hold and to kiss makes everything seem so perfect.
He's the one who makes me want to wake up in the morning, makes me feel like going to school and to stay awake at night.
I smile and laugh every second I'm with him and it feels like time just stops when he's there with me.
I cherish the time I spend with him now because who knows if something would ever happen to break us apart.
All I really want is him to be with me for me, not for something more.
[52]
This is the first time I feel that I can't screw this up because if I do, I know he'll just leave and I'm not letting this one go because he's real,
the one that understands me out of every guy out there that I've ever met or known.
I'm scared to get hurt again, too many tears lost, too much time wasted.
I hope that he's the boy that's going to be there for me, always.
The one who actually keeps his word and promises
[53]
You think you want to die, [54] We spend our whole lives telling ourselves [55]
but in reality
you just want to be saved
that everything happens for a reason.
When in reality, it's just that we give reasons
for everything that happens It’s like a thousand paper cuts soaked in vinegar.
That’s the way it feels when I see him touching her.
It’s like falling face first into a bed of broken glass.
[56]
She doesn’t want to feel this way,
only seventeen, but tired
[57]
Love means loving someone even when you don't feel like liking them that day [58]
I said I love you, he said the same.
I said call me when you miss me,
he smiled and kissed me.
I walked towards my car, and my phone rang
[59]
Missing someone isn't about how long it's been since you've seen them last,
or the amount of time since you've talked.
It’s about that very moment when you're doing something,
&& you wish…
you wish that they were right there with you
[60]
I still wish you would call. [61] Don't be so quick to judge me; [62]
Not to go do anything, just to talk.
I miss hearing your voice every night,
&& I guess I just miss you making me smile
you only see what I choose to show It's the little things you do that make me want to hold on for that much longer
[63]
Don’t expect someone to read your mind, and don't play games with heads or hearts.
Don't tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better than lies.
[65]
Don't be cold to someone you care about, indifference hurts more than angry words
[66]
Sometimes when I let my mind run free...
it never fails, it goes right to you,
&& a smile takes a hold of me
[70]
The best feeling is listening to someone's heartbeat
&& knowing that its beating for nobody, but you
[73]
it's feeling his kiss hours after he's gone,
it's seeing perfection when he's standing beside you,
&& realizing every moment he's not with you is too long
[77]
Two souls could not be more perfect for each other. He is everything I thought I would never be able to find in another person. He makes me laugh like I have never laughed. My smile has never been so bright. He never stops surprising me. But we are worlds apart. He is my forbidden fruit.
[78]
I wanted to tell him that I’ll never be sorry for loving him. && that, in a way, i still do, that maybe I always will. I’ll never regret a single thing we did together because what we had was special.Maybe if we were 10 years older it would have worked out differently.
[79]
I was dying of course.
But then we all were, every day, in perfect increments.
I was dying of loss.
The only help for my condition is that I refused to let go of what I loved.
I wrote everything down.
At first in choppy fragments; a sentence here, a few words there.
It was the most I could stand at the time.
Later I wrote more.
My grief muffled but not eased by the passage of time.
When I go back over my reading now, I can barely read it.
The Happiness is the worst.
Some days I can't bring myself to remember.
But I will not relinquish a single detail of the past
[80]
It may seem that I haven't been thinking of you
&& that this memory of you I've held in my heart,
I've finally been able to let it go.
I'm just trying to give you some space,
give you some time to realize how much you mean to me
&& hopefully you'll pick up your act and come back.
You and I both know that deep inside this thing we got going on ain't ever going to stop. Because as much as I cry, fight, and stress about you,
I wouldn't do it if I didn't think that you were worth it.
Whoever you decide to let take my place, just remember that it won't be for long
because even though we're not together, please don't doubt that it was real.
I don't know what else to do but to wait, wait for better things, better days, a better time for us so that this time, we're gonna make it.
I don't want a fresh start; I want to learn from our mistakes together.
You know I'd do anything for you; I wanna see how far you'll go for me.
There are a lot of things I want, and you're not one of them.
I need you. I keep trying push away these feelings and hide the underneath anything that will keep me sane for the day.
Me and you, we're just the 8th wonder of the world.
I'm dying inside because I hope what I'm saying isn't too late.
Ask anyone that knows me well; the best part about me was you