Once upon a time, a girl was born. She was called Stefira.
She was sent to Earth to fall in love with Leo DiCaprio on 04051992
Some say she's scary but she wants everyone to know that she's just your average teenage girl.
She reads. A lot. Therefore, reading is cool.
She is married to David Archuleta, Leo, Edward, Johnny Depp, Ryan Reynolds and more. Ha!
She dislikes Farah's pet sheep//cat because she thinks that the pet is such a snob.
All information was correct at time of press.

♥ Hey Stephen, Stefira!

I know looks can be deceiving,
but I know I saw a light in you
but i know you SEE a light in ME.

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First, Happy Birthday, Naaaaaaaaaaaassssssssss ~
Second, my realisations ;

1. I got good enough results to get into the sub-science stream.
2. I was unknowingly lucky to be put into the best class there ever was ; 4 Cekal. One of a kind, literally ! :)
3. I was in 4 Cekal with most of my close friends around me, but there are some people who were tercampaked to some other class cos of different streams.
4. I made lots of new friends, STILL AM.
5. I skipped lots of homework. Heeeee.
6. I became hyper-ER. That depends, actually. Hot guys and carbonated drinks are very influential.
7. I realised lots of subs are a pain, seriously.
8. I got to sit with my briliant friends in every class and lab, not separated at all.
9. I got to know quite a few people at Kasturi which made it bearable-er. Got close, drifted, things happen. Classes were even better when Aisya is there, my bestie after all. Miss all the times we skipped weyh !
10. I found out that SOMEONE has a stalker. Heeeeee.
11. I joined Chorus Speaking which was amazing and something I will remember doing forever. Yes, Syaaa, i will STILL annoy you with my gedik British accent ! HAH. ;) i love doing it. Brings out the inner gedikness you know ? Did perform for SAB's Jubli Emas 50 Years blablabla thingy, when the PM of Australia, Kevin Rudd came (he liked our head movement. Weird.) and skipped another performance at PWTC for Kem Bersepadu. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Sorry about that !
12. I realised that my class is also the most chaotic !
13. I went to Lina's dinner thing. It was beautiful and really fun that night ! Had to get a few girlish things that I didn't have. Gosh.
14. I was the co-director for a drama thingamajig, Chow was director. Yeah, true, we didn't win, but I swear I enjoyed every moment of practising the drama with my brilliant cast. So cooperative weyh ! It was a Bridge To Terabithia adaptation. SOMETHING happened during practise too ;) The Fray's How To Save A Life reminds me of all this drama thingies.
15. I love my BIRTHDAYYY. Every year, I love my birthday =.= Tim was the first to wish me, sharp midnight mannn. Thank you yeahh ? Am so happy. Glad you didn't LUPA ! Syafikah, Naa, Atiqah, Ruby got cupcakes, super lovely of them to do so, actually super lovely of everyone who remembered it !
16. June was funnnnnnnnn ~ It has something to do with me baliking in the morning two nights in a row. I've never done that before, EVER, not without my mum, that is. Rupinder's birthday which was where I realised that FIVE people dragging me to go dance was totally futile (HAH), then IU Day which was great and Campfire which made me REALLY REALLY REALLY HYPER. For further details, ask Akrin ! She knows, she suffered through it. Heeee. Sorry, dear :) Buckcherry's Sorry ! Tim, Jon still comel okayh ? ;) Was the day tim and Krishna bongok met my mum, sumpah kelakar.
17. Julyyy, SOMEONE's birthday, midnight wished ! Boo yahh.
18. I went for cammmppp ! Hee, excited gila. Was fun, serious. A weird conversation of sorts ;
Thien Siang : Eh, I've got the stick, but I can't find the hole ! Where's the hole ah ?
The rest of us : (stunned faces) Thien Siang ! Tak senonoh lah !
Thien Siang : Apaaa ? I was talking about this kayu lah. Aiyo, you people fikir lain.
19. I realised some friends drift away, some come back, some stay, some leave, but never to come back, some never know you're there, some assume wrongly, some misunderstand, some hate, some love, some care, some are indifferent, some forget, some remember, some make you laugh so hard, some make you feel so miserable.
20. I realised I can sleep anywhere, no matter what the circumstances ! Anywhere, anyhow, anytime. Hee. Professional sleeper nih !
21. I realised I'm insecure and have zero confidence in most things and a low self-esteem. Doesn't seem so, I know.
22. I realised I lie and pretend in desperation. Example ; Kee. Sorry, dudee.
23. I realised I'm brutally honest. But the honesty anyone sees isn't the REALLL honesty, you know, the unfiltered, uncandy-coated one ! :)
24. I realised some people fell in love, some still are, some fell out of love, some fell in crush/like, some OBSESSSSSSSS (like me) :D
25. I realised I've been depurified by Syams and D =.= I still retain some hidden pureness and innocence, you know ? Gosh.
26. I realised Syams' lame jokes are funny, but murder-worthy.
27. I realised Krishna and Tim can be kinda gay ! I'm kinda worried, but okaaaaaaaaaayyy.
28. I realised Tim is egoless =.= Very annoying, but I like. Krishna pulak is the total opposite which makes him so funny when I kacau him ! Hahaha.
29. I realised me and Tim are very annoying, ESPECIALLY when together and we love to sleep. NOT TOGETHER. Heeeeee. Sorry lah.
30. I realised I'm lazy and like getting the wall. I'm not gonna fall for anyone's stupid tricks dah ! Hmph.
31. I realised that some things are SO much easier without any sort of plans or mind-games or tricks or anything. Do things honestly. You won't get caught then. Heh. HOPEFULLY.
32. I realised that FINE, I WAS IN DENIAL. Aisya bullied me.
33. I realised I say a LOT of ridiculous stuff by accident, like tudang when it's tudung, air keluar daripada water, pencilcock when it's pencilbox and God knows what else.
34. I realised I'm a lot like my mother.
35. I realised EVERY song reminds me of something or someone.
36. I realised I get stuck with a song EASILY, it's annoying !
37. I realised I love being hyper. Should look at hot guys more often ;)
38. I realised I took risks.
39. I realised I've done things I never thought I would do or could ever do, regardless whether I should do it or not !
40. I realised standing TOO near to anyone holding mi kari is very dangerous, actually holding ANYTHING lah kayh ? Ish.
41. I realised people can be really thoughtful and sweet, especially when they do something unexpected.
42. I realised that Colbie Caillat's Realize has been haunting me and STILL is. Goshhh. Penat tau ?
43. I realised that I fell in love :D
44. I realised that Robert Pattinson is very the hot lah weyhh !
45. I realised that I've been obsessed with hot guys since Standard 2 and counting onnnn ~
46. I realised music is beautiful and can tell you so much.
47. I realised that some people just can't let anything go.
48. I realised that I will miss Ayah always.
49. I realised that there are lots of people that I will remember till I grow old and rot unless Edward bites me ;)
50. I realised that time is the best healer !
51. I realised that David Archuleta's singing completes my life. Heee ~
52. I realised that I always confuse my mum's birthday. Sorry !
53. I realised that there aren't enough hot guys in Malaysia. We need moreeee. Breeeeeed you hot people !
54. I realised I'm kinda insane, judging by my....wait, judging by EVERYTHING about me. Not exactly insane lah, ONE OF A KINDDD.
55. I realised Criminal Minds is a very thought-provoking show.
56. I realised I gotta work my ass off next year, I mean, tomorrow.
57. I realised Aisya doesn't know the difference between Kenny G and Kenny Sia =.=
58. I realised I obsess real fast and easily weyhh.
59. I realised that Wikipedia, Youtube and chatting can be addictive.
60. I realised that guys look hott-ER in formal clothes, I mean, everyone does.
61. I realised that as long as no one I care about is gone forever, I'm fine, I think. I can deal with temporary loss.
61. I realised I'm kinda strong for a girl, do not know why though :) Tim thought I lift weights =.= VERY FUNNY, bugger.
62. I realised that I don't have anyone to teman me to stay back anytime, like Naim does ! :(
63. I realised CLICHE IS GOOD. Hmph.
64. I realised I'm nearly as tall as Chow. HAH.
65. I realised being negative doesn't get me anywhere.
66. I realised that everything about Prom was beautiful ! Especially, the people I spent time with there.
67. Okayy. Latest realisation : people give me FUNNY looks when I say I'm mature or pure or in nocent or Shakespearean =.= Penat eh ? Believe me when I say so.
68. I realised I LOVE quotes.
69. I realised I'm more of a night person, hence my nocturnalness.
70. I realised there's more than the surface that people see.
71. I realised lots of things, one of them being ; this list doesn't exactly tell you every single thing that I've realised, but a gist of it.
71. I realised NOW, Colbie Caillat ! Now, stop bugging me. I'VE REALISED LOTS OF STUFF yeah ?
72. I realised my life is great.
73. I realised this year is brilliant and I'll cherish it.
74. I realised that I love my friends and family.
75. I realised that I NEED to be thankful more often.
76. I realised that I'm luckyy as lucky can get, no matter what anyone says :D <3

Gee, thanks, Jo ! It's lovely to be tagged ! (no sarcasm). :)

RULES:

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

4. Tag 10 friends.

5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.

6. Have Fun !


IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?

Secondhand Serenade - Vulnerable.

[haha, I so would not say that, I'm super sure of that !]


HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

Westlife - Bop Bop Baby.

[hahaha, I dunno what to say to that ! I'm childish like a baby, I guess ? ]



WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

Colbie Caillat - Realize.

[OH MY GOD ! Apa nihh. This song has been haunting me this whole year weyhh. I mean, what do I have to realize that I haven't yet already ? Accoding to the song, I dare say, I HAVE realized okayh ? :D]



HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Busted feat McFly - Build Me Up Buttercup.

[I feel fantastic kot ? I mean, Charlie's singing ! Hee :)]



WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

Backstreet Boys - I Still.

[Okaaayhhh. This song is very umm, in the past-ish.]



WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?

Busted - Can't Break Through.

[Hee. Why are you always complaining about me, you don't even know who I am ? Haha. Charlie hot ! ]



WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Firehouse - I Live My Life For You.

[Hahaha, yeah, my friends make up my life and me ! :)]



WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Take That - Patience.

[HAHAHHAHA, the irony, sumpah. My mum always said she needs tonnes and tonnes of patience to deal with me weyh, seriously.]



WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

David Archuleta feat One Republic - Apologize.

[Riiigghhhhtt, not exactly, but okaayh.]



WHAT IS 2 + 2?

Miley Cyrus - Superman.

[Haha, sah tak kena.]



WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Nicole Sherzinger - Baby Love.

[Say what nowwww ?]



WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

Britney Spears - Radar.

[Oh gosh, yeahh, I have hot guys on my radar all the time. Jan's my partner in NOT crime. Heee. Kidding lah.]



WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

Busted - Air Hostess.

[Hahaha. Okaaayhhh, I've been told, but weirddd. ]



WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Backstreet Boys - The Call.

[I think about his CALLS ? That's retarded !]



WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

John Farnham - You're The Voice.

[What an inspirational song for a wedding weyh ! No way.]



WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

N'Sync - Tearin' Up My Heart.

[Haha, the irony again, sumpah. I don't think I would tear up anyone's heart lah kayh.]



WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??

The Corrs - Runaway.

[I like running away ? I'm NOT eloping, Karin Fam !]



WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

Jesse McCartney feat Anne Hathaway - Don't Go Breaking My Heart.

[Yes, PLEASE, don't go breaking my heart :D]


WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Busted - Meet You There.

[Heyy, this songgggg ~ The song doesn't apply to the question though.]



WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?

Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest.

[Er, okaaayhh, Twilight soundtrack, so maybe I want EDWARD CULLEN can ? ;)]



WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

5ive - Keep On Movin'.

[Positive song !]



WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

Busted - Fake.

[Say what ? This post is fake lah now ? Adoii.]

'You have stolen my heart'. =D =D =D =D =D =D =D

NUR SYAWALINA AZWANI BINTI HUSSAIN, I would gladly ignore your tag because you didn't remind me this time, but I'm in an obliging mood and I don't have the faintest idea as to why that is. But you, NUR SYAWALINA AZWANI BINTI HUSSAIN, how could you forget my birthday ? Hee ~ Never mind actually, never expected anyone to remember pon :) Thank you for not remembering eh ? Maybe it was a bit of sarcasm there, I don't know now. I don't mind kayh ?
FRIENDS ( some people aren't gonna do this tag because they don't have blogs, so yeah and I know that for sure but I'm tagging them ANYWAY )

1. Aisya
2. Tim
3. Diandra
4. Arda
5. Karin ( whom will NOT do the tag eventhough she has a blog =.=)
6. Farah
7. Jo
8. Nas

9. How did you meet 6?
Farah ; er, at school, specifically KENALED her, at the school canteen, thanks to Eragon kan, Farah ? :) Edward Speleers brought us together ! ;p

10. Why are you friends with 3?
Diandra ; there is no specific reason actually, we just are, honestly and I love it ! :)

11. Is 7 in a relationship?
Jo ; not that I know of and I must admit, I know little. So if she does, she didn't inform me of this very important matter ! ;)

12. Have you kissed 1?
Aisya ; I don't think I have. Hee ~

13. Have you hugged 4?
Arda ; nopeseyhh, not recently, I think, maybe masa Prom kot, tak ingat dah ;)

14. Have you done anything sexual with 6?
Farah ; OH MY GOD ! No, duh. Ish. Sengal gila. Wait, depends what sexual means EXACTLY lah kan ? ;p

15. Would 1 and 8 make a good couple?
Aisya and Nas ; now that's just a sight to behold, wouldn't it ? ;)

16. How long have you known 2?
Tim ; er, known from FAR since Form 1, thanks to GOT LAH SOMEONE, known as in KNOW for real, since January 2008 ! :D

17. Would you ever kiss 7?
Jo ; not on my to-do-list, but okaaaayy.

18. Whats a good memory with 5?
Karin ; woww, actually and honestly, there's too many, especially when it involves bugging the heck out of each other =D

19. Ever hugged 8?
Nas ; of course I have ! but that was like back in what, Primary 6 ? :( 20 .Do you love 4? Arda ; depends.

21. Is 5 nice?
Karin ; sure, she is ! Silly question, but Karin isn't very nice when she eats REAL SLOW on purpose =.=

22. How did you meet 3?
Diandra ; at school, duh, back in Form 2 :)

23. Who makes you laugh?
All my brilliant friends do that :D

24. Who makes you smile?
Same-os !

25 . When was the last time you saw 4?
Arda ; Prom lah.

26. Would 3 and 6 make a cute couple?
Diandra and Farah ; why, I wouldn't be surprised if they do ! ;p 27. Does 8 love you? Nas ; I guess so, she better weyh ! ;)

28. Do you see 3 a lot?
Diandra ; I saw her the most during these hols, sumpah, I'm not complaining, she's a great friend ! :D

29. Describe 4 in 3 words?
Arda-ish, Arda-ble, Arda-ness :)

30. What would you buy 1 for their birthday?
Aisya ; God knows !

31. Have you traveled anywhere with 5?
Akrin ; not exactly :(

32. Do you have fun with 7?
Jo ; yeah, sure do :)

33. Is 2 a cool person?
Tim ; hahaha, sorry, just had to laugh at the question kejap. Sureeeeee he is ! One of the bestest people I know and I'm not saying that cause I'm just biased either :p

34. Who is the loudest?
Nas and me together is just asking for chaos, seriousNESS ;p

35. Do any of them get on your nerves sometimes?
Hahaha, sure, but I let it slide lah. Malas nak be really petty sometimes.

36. Do you know when 6's birthday is?
Farah ; duh, she reminds me of it every darn chance she gets : 8th March. I remember everyone else's on the list too :P

37. What do you really think of 3?
Diandra ; she has too much energy in her really cekeding body ? ;p

38. Best memory with 4?
Arda ; our lovely super long convos into the morning, talking about everything there is under the sun on God's green Earth that is getting really polluted by now. That's the only way we communicate, isn't it ? Doesn't happen much now though :(

39. Does 1 even know you?
Aisya ; I will personally nail her to a tree, even IF it's illegal ;D

40. Is 5 happy?
Karin ; no idea, actually. Haven't talked to her for ages. Probably missing her high speed connection and adopted chickens kot ;p

41. Does 7 live close?
Jo ; yeapos, a STEP AWAY ! :)

42,Do you have any classes with 2?
Tim ; used to and I enjoy every single moment of it, sumpah ( there IS these little numbers at the edge of the page, Tim, it represents the PAGE NUMBER !) ;D

43. Have you and 3 ever hooked up?
Diandra ; er, D ? Answer this, would ya ?

44. Are you and 8 close?
Nas ; reconciled ? :)

45. Do you wanna kiss 4?
Arda ; no, not exactly ! :)

46. Is 6 a good person?
Farah ; sure, she is, gosh, penat !

47. Does 2 own a car?
Tim ; don't I wish mannnnnnnn ! Go get one fast-fast lah, aiyo. Don't bajet nak silver Volvo eh please ? ;p

'Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer,
Do you know you're unlike any other,
You'll always be my thunder,
And I said your eyes are the brightest of all the colours,
I don't wanna ever love another,
You'll always be my thunder,
So bring on the rain,
and bring on the thunder'.

My connection was screwed due to my phone line being down. Bodoh, turned out it was just LONGGAR. I could've fixed it myself, tak payah nak wait for the blessed Telekom guy to come kan. Ish. Thank God I got my connection back ! Wheeeeeeeeeeee ~ I nearly died being Internet-free, don't ask why. Nothing interesting happened recently except SAB's Prom Night thingamajig.

So kay finee, here goes Prom. It took me one hour and a half to get ready for it. D came over cause we're going together. Had to leave the house like real early because nak make it in time before the psychotic Friday jam goes full blast.

The first thing I noticed was that the Grand Millenium Hotel cantikkkkk ! I mean the interior deco is so nicee and the lights and all. I was fascinated by Bukit Bintang's street lights. Hee. So the Grand Ballroom was on the second floor. First person me and D met was Afiq ! He gave us this dramatic expression when he saw us. Sweet, he's just being polite. Then, jumpa Shafira, Athira, Sanjay, Shirley and all lah. We lepaked outside cos we're kinda early and waited for everyone else to arrive. I tell you, THE RESTROOMS ARE SO NICE that you can live in it, sumpah. I wouldn't complain. Tim sengaliah didn't recognise me until I said 'Oi, bugger' =.= I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. Ish. I swear I tried to stop looking and observing everyone, especially guys. I mean, everyone looked hot weyhh. Can you imagine me suffering through all that ? I think I used up all my willpower reserves dah that night. Tim wasn't very excited about THAT. Heeeee. Because of my one-shouldered dress, people have been saying it's Cleopatra-ish. I'm honoured, thank you so much weyh.

Aisya gedik came, eventhough she LIED and said she wasn't coming. I don't like you anymore. You lie, May Belle ! You lieeee. Transported back to our drama practice days owh. When it was 8 pm dah, we went into the ballroom after registering. The pathway leading to the doors were lined with candles and the carpet was like shimmering gold-ish. Seemed magical. Afiq, Arda, Aisya, Akid, me, Tim, D, Syafiq, Athira, Assddy sat at the frontest table. Afiq's choice okayh ? We makannnnnn. The food was lovely, luckily. Syafiq ate TWO full, really overloaded plates, sumpah his stomach must be a bottomless pit mannnn. The guy who sang and entertained us all during dinner was friendly because as Tim the smartass said ; he was paid to be friendly =.= Penat owh. Some people slow danced to his songs. Sweeeet ~ There was a band called Childhood Dreamers from Sri Garden who performed a few songs as well. When he sang the starting of Alicia Keys' No One, he got a few laughs. Sounded ummm, wrong ? Hee. Then, they went into a whole medley of songs which oddly included Demi Lovato's This Is Me which made me and D complain. Hahaha. That song annoys me now.

After that, Aryl's band performed, I think. I don't remember much dah now. He was better than his previous performances that night lah. I mean, I didn't die, that's a good sign. They sang a few songs like Oasis' Don't Look Back In Anger which AISYA TAK HAFALLL. You lose, Syaaaa ~ and Sum 41's Hell Song. Can't ingat what else. Then, Tim the Lee went up to sing Secondhand Serenade's Fall For You. You were great okaayh ? Trust me. It was beautiful, thank you yeah ? There were games and stuff in between performances. One game was called 'Guys Suck, Girls Blow'. Yeah, that sounds wrong, I knowwww. It was just a game with balloons and drinks. No obscenity lahh. Tsk tsk tsk, you people ah. Tak senonoh. Aisya and Akid kept disappearing to God knows where and I don't wanna know where. When Aisya came back, her shawl was around Akid's neck, sumpah tak nak tau what you guys were up to kayh. Afiq performed alone-ish. Was freaking fun and hilarious though. He knows how to entertain a crowd, honestly. Your body is a Disneyland kan ? Proud to say that he is SAB's Prom King of 2008. He deserves it =D Somewhere near the end, Keng Sheng and Zoran whom D says is Roxy's Summer Splash Hunk thingamajig sang We the King's Check Yes Juliet which I must say when I first heard the song, I thought it was Jackass Juliet. Hee. Salah dengar okayyhh ? Both guys hot gila, but I don't need them kan, Tim ?

Coronation was one of the last things, obviously. We had to vote, duh. Afiq is Prom King like I said before, Becka's Prom Queen, Zureen got Best Dressed for Female (she looked like she just popped out a 1930's era weyh), Syahmi got Best Dressed for Male cos he looked super smart and was one of the only guys who kept his jacket on ! The circlets or supposed 'crowns' were leaf-ish, giving the people an elven look. Afiq bajet elven prince, blaaaahhhhhh. So yeahh. And to quote DJ Flicko ; it's time to partaaaayyy after that. The lights were off, leaving only those sparkling lights and techno was played super loudddd. I got stuck with Womanizer after that. Bongok.

When everyone got out of the Ballroom, it was camwhoring time for everyone, duh. Pics with Aisya though. Ish. Dunno bila dapat from her. There were these two boxes of cupcakes that was quite untouched so before me and D left, she stole one box, sumpah tak senonoh. But rezeki jangan ditolak, bala jangan dicari right ? So rezeki TAKEN yeah ? We split in half. Hee. That's as much as I remember, if ada anything else, I add later lah eh. So yeah, prom endeddd. There goesss. Christmas timeeee now ! SOMEONE tak beli Christmas presents yet, I wonder who ?

'Whoever said nothing's impossible, obviously never tried slamming a revolving door'.

Okay, I must say I'm worried about myself now. I think I'm going insaneeee. I mean, I had TWO weird dreams in a row. Goshh. I don't know what that says about my mental state, but yeah. I might need help here.

Be prepared mentally to laugh at my ridiculous subconcsious wishes that turn into weird dreams alright-o ?

My first weirdo dream was when I dreamt that it was a school morning. I got dressed, the usual routine, had breakfast bla bla bla, then a car with four ex-Sabian girls in it and CHACE CRAWFORD as in the hot guy from Gossip Girl, in the backseat. I must say I wasn't complaining in the dream nor in real life if that were to actually happen kay. I mean, who would right ? But yeahh, in the dream, I was aware that I'm umm, taken ? Anyway, it was drizzling that morning, cooling weather lah. I don't know why but the journey to school was so longgg. Must have taken like two hours to get there. During the journey there, I fell asleep cos I was tired. My head leaned to the right and I felt CHACE push my head to rest on his shoulder ! Sumpah, if it's possible to die in a dream, I really acheived that mann ! So fine, I let him do that lah kan, DUH. I wasn't gonna move from my position even if it killed me =D The air-cond was probably set to one of the low temperatures, so I got really cold and started shivering, so I folded my arms to try and get some warmth, which I personally think is a stupid thing to do because Chace should have been radiating HOTNESSITY to me kan, but okay lah. He noticed I was cold, so he put his arms around me to keep me warm. Am officially dead as of that moment, harap maklum. When we got to school, the girls that saw us all come out of the same car got really ticked off. Wow. The feeling of being envied was overwhelming even if it was just a dream. And then, I woke up. Darn it. Haihhh. Too good to be true weyhhh. I don't get it. Chace isn't one of the guys I'm obsessed with and I wasn't thinking of HIM before I slept, so what the heck ? SOMEONE got jealous of Chace, I wonder who kann ? Don't be jealous lah kay, wasting timee. I still love all those other hot guys, you know ? Heeeee. Kidding ! (Maybe ?)

So, my second weirdo dream happened last night. I dreamt that I bumped into David Archuleta at KLCC.THAT IS JUST DARN RIDICULOUS. I wish my silly subconcsious wishes would at least dream up something that is believable. Ish. Anyway, I shall just state it all lah. He was alone. Then, SOMEHOW, these five gangsters wanted to attack him for what reason only God knows. I saw them coming towards him, but he didn't realise it because he was looking at something else. I just quickly dragged him to an elevator and hit the close button and we went to the lowest floor. He was so blur and didn't know what was going on. I told him that there were people after him. I asked him if he did something wrong recently or anything and he said no. I didn't think he would do anything wrong either. He's so sweet. Then, he said thank you for saving him when I didn't actually do anything but drag him into the elevator. He gave me a big hug ! COMELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL ~ He smelled fresh, like crushed pine needles and freesia. I can even imagine what he SMELLS like =.= Maybe I AM insane. Then, that dream just ended abruptly. DANG IT. I wouldn't complain if he did MORE than just give me a hug kann. Heeeeeee. After that, I got into ANOTHER ridiculous dream which was me and Karin fighting about Ryan Higa. Danggg. He's hotter in my dream somehow. We both wanted him. Scarraaaayy.

Yeapos, for the moment, I proclaim myself utterly out of my mind, seriously. So, tomorrow's SAB's Prom thingy. I'm so indifferent about it. I'm undecided whether to be excited or not. Will tell tomorrow if I'm rajin enough. I hope everything goes smoothly. Kyleeee HOTTT !

Me : Can't we just go take the elevator ?
Him : But the escavator's nearer whaaat.
Me : Oh, ESCAVATOR huh ? Elevator plus escalator eh ? You need help, you know ? *laughs*
Him : No. No. I meant, escalator. Salah cakap.
Me : Hmmmm, ye lahh tuh.

I'm so forgetful that I wish my friend's birthdays like 3 days late !

Haaapppyyy BELATED 16th Birthdaaayyy, Keeeeee !

Haaapppyyy BELATED 16th Birthdaaayyy, Garryyyy !

'Since light travels faster than sound, isn't that why some people appear bright until you hear them speak ?' - Steven Wright.

Me and Naim were talking about Bronx Mowgli, as in Pete Wentz and Ashlee Simpson's child and it turned out that I don't remember the Jungle Book's characters names well.

Me : Mowgli is the name from Jungle Book kan ?

Naim : Yeah, the boy. What was the name of the black bear ?

Me : It starts with a B, that much I remember. What was it ? Oh, Babloo ! Wait, I mean, Baloo.

*Naim starts laughing his ass off at me*

Naim : Stef, you confused the name with the guy in the Hindustan movie.

Haihhh. Mortifying, I tell you. I'm always laughing at my mum for her toasted chickens and road blocks for my skin and I'm becoming her !

'It's not cheating ; it's called creative sportsmanship !'

Me : Don't you get angry when I call you a loser ?

Him : No, I don't.

Me : But, why NOT ? You should kan.

Him : Because I'm your loser.




Me : Fine, I'm not talking to you anymore.

Him : Okayy.

*silenceeee*

Me : Oiii. Bukannya pujuk. Penat.

Him : Whaaat ?! You said tak nak talk to me. I'm just following what you said =.=


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I actually got up in good time to get ready and get to KLCC to meet D at er, 10 am and I got there at 11. But uhhhhhhhh, I got stuck on the phone with Tim who wouldn't let me go ! Sorry, D. First time I'm one hour late. So yeah. Oh no, I'm NOT turning into Karin ! Please please please. I love my punctuality ! D wanted to go kill Tim. Hee. Well, DON'T okay ? =D and don't kill me cos I wavified my hair either ! I love it, though I wish it would grow faster. I mean, my hair is SO STUBBORN, like me ! Hee.

Got there, bought tickets to watch Bolt ! Went to the food court's McD to get myself a vanilla milkshake since I didn't exactly have a proper breakfast, thanks to Tim, not that I mind kayh. Then, got a heart attack when I saw Naim sitting at the table with D. I mean, I didn't expect to see him at all. He tagged along with me and D kejap while we did our window-shopping business. Poor guy, but WHO CARES ?! Padan muka, bully me banyak sangat. Hah. He left after a while. After that, bumped into him AGAIN. Agak penat eh. He was with a girl called Saarah that I kenal-ed from Becka's raya open house thingy. That was the last I saw of him for the day. He had some job interview to go to. Met Becka and the rest of the prom committee to get the blasted tickets. Had lunch, went to watch Bolt ! He's so comelllllllll ~ I think D got tired of hearing me say 'I want a dog', 'I want to hug Bolt', 'The hamster annoying !' So yeah, sorry ah, D. Hyperised, you know.

Then, jalan-jalan here, there. Saw like a few hot guys, but nahhh. Shall TRY to remain loyal. Oh, me and D realised that every time I walked through a shop, the sensors/alarm thingy went off. It happened like in EVERY shop I entered. In the end, I got so frustrated I asked the guy at Esprit to scan MY WHOLE BAG. He took out everything and scanned it through the sensor thingy. Turns out my phone pouch STILL had a barcode INSIDE IT and I didn't know. I was like 'Bontot itik. This is what is causing me such PAIN to enter a shop ? Ish'. So he just took it and threw it away and voila, problem solveddd. =.= The embarrassment I had to go through. Bongok. Jalaned a lot, then baliked.

Syafikah, Naa and Ruby are SUPPOSED to come tomorrow and there goes my chances of waking up at 5 pm. But never mind, company is always nice for me !

'All that glitters is not gold, there's brass and copper or it might be plated ! '

I really just knew that Hari Raya Aidiladha was er, TODAY, when Naim told me a few days ago, while chatting. He mentioned it in passing. No wonder lahh. I was wondering why the heck ada some raya ads going on kat TV. Ish. How was I to know ?! Yeah, you'll tell me to go check the calendar, well, I didn't check the calendar. Fine, so now I know, but I don't remember. When Tim called and said tomorrow is Hari Raya Aidiladha, now I'm just scared of myself. And HIM. I mean, a CHINESE guy remembers it's RAYA and I don't ! Walao weyhh. That's seriously worrying. Well, anyway, now I know okayh ? Hee. Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha, people !

'Do you remember when we fell in love ?' James Bourne ; Want Me Like That. I know you don't either, so shush, Tim. =D Boo yah.

I honestly DO NOT KNOW whether to be proud or ashamed to admit that Karin the Fam, despite her masalahness can actually say things that are quite thought-provoking. I mean, this is the same bugger who's addicted to Spore and left me to die ALONE ONLINE. But her recent post, the death one, is something I've experienced myself, for real.

I remember going to one of my dad's side's relative whom I didn't really know or remember even until now, I mean I don't know WHO died, but someone did and it was someone in my family that I really didn't know. Me, my dad and my mum attended the funeral thingy. I remember being SO COLD-HEARTED, so inconsiderate because I thought to myself, back then, why am I here ? It's just someone I don't know, even IF I am related to him. I hardly see him. I don't know what's he like when he was alive. He didn't affect my life in any way whatsoever, so why am I here ?

It was a death within my family and yet, I remained unaffected and uncaring. I was so heartless. Gosh, I can't believe myself. It is true what Karin says, nothing actually does affect you unless it happens to you, especially death to someone you know or love, trust ME, I know. You always think, unknowingly, 'Oh, this wouldn't happen to me. I mean, sheesh, what are the chances of waking up and finding my dad gone or anyone else I know ? It's just SO unlikely. Nahh, it wouldn't happen to me now, or tomorrow or the day after or ever'.

But when you really ARE hit in the face with a death of someone you love or know, you should know that it really is something that will change how you are, how you will be, everything you were or could have been will be altered. It wouldn't be the same. Death affects someone greatly, even if the person themselves wouldn't admit it or don't realise it. It changes how you see things, it changes everything you were BEFORE the person died. You will also try to cling on to every memory you ever had with that person because you don't want to lose it, you don't want that person to be out of your life in any way whatsoever. Something will almost always remind you of that person. Or if you were doing something you used to love doing with that person AFTER that person died, you will wish he/she was right there with you to enjoy it like you always did.

At first, it feels as if he/she just went away for a while, like on vacation, except you know that this vacation is forever, in your heart. After some time, you'll come to realise that he/she is never ever coming back, no matter how you cry your eyes out, miss them, anything, nothing isn't going to bring them back and you realise that you have lost someone that meant very much to you. From what I've learnt it's never to take something or someone or ANYTHING for granted. Don't EVER EVER EVER think they'll always be there when you wake up for breakfast, be there for you on your first day of school. There is always the chance of losing them hovering over you because that is how life is. Expect the unexpected and all that, except I really didn't expect the unexpected when it happened. Don't EVER say things or do things you might regret. I'm STILL FREAKING working on that. Never let the last thing you say to someone be something mean. You will regret it all your life. In other words, just be nice to the person you love or at least, just tell them every now and then. Let them know you love them and care for them, it's utterly important. Trust me, I know what it's like. I was changed.

You will remember every detail of the day they died. You might also live wondering if things would have been different if he/she was around, if YOU could have been a whole different person with a different personality than this one now. I know I have done that. You will want to know if they know how things are going on here on the living side, I've been told that those who have gone, do know what's going on and I still believe that.

About Karin's post about those poor people having more kids than they could afford, well, I just freaking agree and have always thought so. When I asked my mum, 'Why do they have SO MANY children if they know they can't afford so many mouths to feed, then turn up on some TV show asking for financial help ? Isn't that bongok ?' My mum : They've nothing to entertain themselves with lah, no TV and all. Now, THAT is a bad mental image okay. Sheesh, thanks Meh.

KARIN FAM, if you're reading this, STOP calling him my boytoy and you officially inspired me to write all this. Now.... FORGET I ever said that. =D

'There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again,
sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there,
some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit,
sometimes I just want to hide cos it's you I miss,
are you looking down upon me,
are you proud of who I am ?,
if I had just one more day,
I would tell you how much that I missed you since you went away' - Christina Aguilera ; Hurt.

I wish you were here with me now, Ayah <3333333

Quotes by guess who, Tims ? ;D

How can I prove my love for you ?

I want to be perfect for you.

Happy 2-Year Anniversary, Aisyaaaaaaa ~ and uhh, Akid too, obviously ! =D Super crappingtang proud of you guys sangated. Last always kayh ? Sorry lambat wish, btw. Very busy person, you know ? Hee.

'There are some things you could say, would say, want to say, wish to say, imagine saying it, but just SHOULD NOT say'.

Firstly, Happy Birthday, Fraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannn ! And to Syahira too. =D You're 16 nowww ! Wheee ~ Enjoy today okayhhh ? =D Fran, sorry I wished you like at 2 something am. That was because I was umm, well, preoccupied is how i would put it, with Edward and er, OTHER hot guys kayh ?

Today I had to get up like flipping early, at 8 something am, since it takes me half an hour to wangify myself. Yeah, I really mandi THAT long. I'm very thorough you know, well, when I have the time to be, that is. I don't do hose mandi kerbau things, IF I can help it. I had only FOUR HOURS of sleep the night/morning before cos I slept at 4 am, stuck with playing Gold Miner and reading Eldest. Isn't that productive ?

I wangified, got ready, met Farah at Wangsa Maju LRT at 9.20 am possibly ? Dunno lah. But our timing was brilliant. Then, next stop was to cari Tim at Jelatek's LRT. I saw him sitting all alone. Kesiaaaaaaaaannnn sangat ! Farah stepped out to call him into the train because I was on the phone with I-can't-really-remember-who.


So, we sampai-ed TS quite early, the shops weren't open yet. We went to Borders and lepak-ed there to wait for KARIN THE VERY ON TIME WOMAN and D. D was earlier. Karin came late as USUAL. I doubt anyone was surprised lah. Ish.We collected the tickets, me and Tim, that is. Bajet nak flash the phone lah now, NOT-pro ?

We jalan-ed here, there and almost everywhere, while chatting. Tim was trying to korek some NOT dirty little secret of mine from Karin and D. Didn't work though because surprisingly, Karin's loyalty wasn't swayed. I'm proud now, Kye ! D didn't spill either, LUCKILY. Or if not I'll personally nail them to a tree and make the rest of their lives a living hell. Hee.
Oh, they heard Buckcherry's Sorry playing as we went out of F.O.S. I didn't, they told me and I went back into the shop just to listen to the song. I tend to enter shops because of the songs sometimes ! Karin also has this really STUPID theory of me bubbling off with different people at different times by turns, which I do not. Don't listen to Kye. She makes unreasonable theories all the time. And she has some odd issue with me walking fast. Kye, I don't walk fast, you walk SLOW. Ish.

We watched Twilight. For me, it was the second time. Hee. Twilight MUST watch more than once, duh. It's essential to my continuous existence on earth as a living being. Tim and Farah's hands have been, umm, TORTURED by my very tight grip on it whenever Edward APPEARS. Sorry, guys. I need something to hold on to or if not nanti I'll just slip into death or something of the sort. Movie ended, jumpa Aisya and Akido. HAHAHAHHA. I totally ignored Akid the first ten minutes of meeting them who were actually in the same cinema as us. THEN only, I said 'Hi, Akidddd !' He was like, 'Dah peluk, dah cakap dengan girlfriend orang lama-lama baru nak tegur'. DUHHH. Ish. Aisya's my bestie kayh.

Tim had to balik early because he had music class, so yeah. Me, Karin and Farah lepak-ed at Starbucks. Farah and Karin played CHESS. Farah, I'm not surprised lah cause I know she takes chess classes or something like that, but KARIN KNOWS HOW TO PLAY CHESS, even though she lost. Hee. I mean, it's intellectual. Smile, Karin. Smileeeee kayh ? Anti-insult, remember ? =D

We balik-ed and the trains were all so full that even a tin of sardines had MORE room for MORE gravy lah weyh. We had to go further up which towards KL Sentral, then only go Terminal Putra-wise. It took ages. Karin's mum and Farah's mum weren't the happiest people by that time. In the end, we made it through. Anyway, today was a lovely day for me, as always. I enjoy outings a lot, so yeah.

Oh, Naim said Twilight's nice. HAH. Boo yah ! Never trust me lagi. I mean, there's a reason a hot guy is in it lah ; reason : it makes the movie even better ! Yeah, I know. I'm very hot guy-oriented kan. Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Btw, thanks, sayangg. You know why ! <3

'Say it' - Edward Cullen. =D

I never knew my name's hidden meaning could be so RIDICULOUS !