Loves, Stefira.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

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I know dah berzaman tak update and I weirdly, feel guilty. I'm getting blogtitis ! Gosh. Never thought I would live to see the day when I would feel guilty for not updating my blog ! Well, anyway, since I last blogged PROPERLY, a whole bunch of shitting crap has happened to me that I wonder why I haven't jumped off my seventh floor flat. Yeah, I sound suicidal, but no worries, I'm not nuts enough and I still love my life even with all the shitting crap included.School has been great, kinda. I love going to school. Home's just dull-ish. This year, I'm in 5 Cekal. We have all the same students as last year except Xin Yi and Joo Ling. I have started an addiction to Xin Yi's spray cologne thingy ! Nice weyhhhh ! But Tim doesn't like it. Sengality. Never mind kayh ? I'm wangiest anyway ! Hee. Tim sits SO FAR AWAYYYYYYY. But maybe that's for the best lah. Our so BRILLIANT school dah pasang CCTV. Sangat annoying eh ! Ish. Cluster school, Chow's blue ass lah ! Fran has this stupid theory which is me and Tim look at each other hornily and we annoy the heck out of Selvin, Sharane, Fran and Rupinder cos we're always passing notebooks. Fran's forever trying to find out what we're saying ! Ish. Btw, Farah you can take the VI dude, I tak nak. Dia gedik lebih.

Pn. Chew : Timothy, Stefira, I see that there are 'waves' travelling between you two. You both same frequency ah ?
The whole class : AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH ~
Me and Tim : No lah, teacher. Where got !

=.= SENGAL.

Pain is indescribable, trust me. It's not meant to be defined, not even by the most expert of experts.

Tim : *looks up to the Chemistry lab ceiling* Happy Birthday, Mr Marzuki !' =D

'Inside I'm slowly dying, but the rain will hide my crying, don't you know my tears will burn the pillow, set this place on fire, all I needed was a simple hello, but the traffic was so noisy, that you could not hear me cry, I gave you my love in vain, my body never knew such pleasure, my heart never knew such pain, you leave me so confused, now I'm all cried out over you, my tears will cause an inferno, the moment something fades, why should I take the blame, you were the one who left me neglected, apology not accepted and it took a broken heart to collect it, I gave you all of me.'

'See the lights, see the party, the ballgowns, see you make your way through the crowd to say hello, we keep quiet cos we're dead if they knew, so close your eyes, escape this town for a little while, but you were everything to me, I was begging you, please don't go, this love is difficult, but it's real, don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess, it's a love story, baby, just say yes.'

'Do you remember when we fell in love, three times a day we couldn't get enough, we spent the weekends with nobody else, I just had to have you for myself, you held me like you'd never let me go, I want to know, do you still want me like that, I count the days till I see you again, so into you that I could read your mind.'

' If everything stopped, I'd listen for your heart to lead me right to you, I've tried every way I can.'

'It started out as a feeling which then turned into a hope, which then turned into a quiet thought, which then turned into a quiet word, and then that word grew louder and louder till it was a battle cry, I'll come back when you call me, no need to say goodbye, just because everything's changing, doesn't mean it's never been this way before, all you can do is try to know who your friends are before you head off to the war, pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light, you'll come back when it's over, no need to say goodbye, now we're back at the beginning, it's just a feeling that no one knows yet, but just because they can't feel it too, doesn't mean that you have to forget, let your memories grow stronger and stronger, you'll come back when they call you.'

'Get on up, when you're down, baby, take a good look around, I know it's not much, but it's okay, we're gonna keep on movin' anyway, things will be alright in the end.'

'Take me where I've never been, help me on my feet again, show me that good things come to those who wait, tell me I'm not on my own, tell me I won't be alone, tell me what I'm feeling isn't a mistake, cos if anyone can make me fall in love, you can, save me from myself, you can, and it's you and no one else, if I could wish upon tomorrow, tonight would never end, if you asked me, I would follow, but for now, I'll just pretend, baby, when you look at me, tell me what do you see, are these the eyes of someone you could love, cos everything that brought me here, now it all seems so clear, baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of, only you can take me, sailing in your deepest eyes, bring me to my knees and make me cry, no one's ever done this, everything was just a lie and I know, this is where it all begins, so tell me it will never end, I can't fool myself, its you and no one else.'

'I don't care, I'm not gonna stop running cos without you I've got nothing.'

'So when I'm lying in my bed, thoughts running through my head, and I feel the love is dead, I'm loving angels instead, and through it all, he offers me protection, a lot of love and affection whether I'm right or wrong, and down the waterfall, where ever it may take me, I know that love won't break me, when I come to call, he won't forsake me, I'm loving angels instead, when I'm feeling weak, and my pain walks down a one way street, I look above, and I know I'll always be blessed with love.'

'Could be your eyes, could be your smile, could be the way you fill my mind, your precious touch caressed my soul, you gave me everything I need, and now you're lost forever, you said this is going nowhere, and you said I turned my back on you, you said I'm not the only one for you, please give me one more try for the sake of our love, please give me one more chance cos I can't give you up, I can't live one more day without you in my arms, I can never find another like you, could be the lies, could be my pride, could be the days and nights so wild, could be the times I wasn't there, and all the nights we didn't share, I can't sleep, I can't live without you by my side, so cold, so lost without you as my guide, you made me realize I am nothing without you.'

'You can hardly wait to tell your friends how his kisses taste sweet like wine, and how he always makes your heart skip a beat every time he walks by, and if you're feeling down, he'll pick you up, he'll hold you close when you're making love, he's everything you've been dreaming of, I wish you'd look at me that way, your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine, telling me more than any words could say but you don't even know I'm alive, to you all I am is the invisible man, you don't see me, baby, you probably spend hours on the phone, talking 'bout nothing at all, it doesn't matter what the conversation, just as long as he calls, lost in a love so real and so sincere, you'll wipe away all those tears, your face lights up whenever he appears.'

'You're my sunshine after the rain, you're the cure against my fear and my pain, cos I'm losing my mind when you're not around, it's all because of you, cos I close my eyes and I realize that no one else can ever take your place, if I knew how to tell you what's on my mind, make you understand that I'll always be there right by your side.'

'You live, you learn, you love, you learn, you cry, you learn, you bleed, you learn, you scream, you learn.'

'Don't go breaking my heart, I couldn't if I tried, right from the start I gave you my heart.'

'When you have to look away, when you don't have much to say, that's when I love you just that way, to hear you stumble when you speak or see you walk with two left feet, that's when I love you endlessly, here's my promise made tonight, you can count on me for life, cos that's when I love you, when nothing you do can change my mind, the more I learn the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough, that's when I love you no matter what, that's when I love you a little more each time or when you laugh at your own jokes, that's when I love you more than you'll know.'

'I'm sitting here alone up in my room, trying to convince myself that I'm not losing you, why can't you just forget the things I've said, I was angry at the time, it was so strong, where did it all go wrong, so tell me why I'm swimming against the tide, and I'm praying for a lifeline cos I'm losing you, so tell me why you don't care enough to try, are you giving up this fight, I can't stand, won't stand losing you, what can I do to convince you we need more time, and I know I have made a few mistakes, but losing you is just too much for me to take, so tell me what to say because I need a chance to change and I won't let you walk away.'

'I'm learning to fall, I can hardly breathe, when I'm going down, don't worry 'bout me, don't try this at home, pretend you don't see, I don't wanna know that you know it should've been me, how could you be with him or was it just a lie, he doesn't get you like I do and you don't know why, you change your clothes and your hair but I can't change your mind, I'm uninvited, so unrequited now.'

'Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer, do you know you're unlike any other, you'll always be my thunder, and I said your eyes are the brightest of all the colours, I don't wanna ever love another, you'll always be my thunder, so bring on the rain and bring on the thunder.'

'Hey Juliet, I think you're fine, you really blow my mind, maybe someday you and me can run away, I just want you to know, I wanna be your Romeo, I know you really want me, I hear your friends talk about me, so why you trying to do without me, when you got me where you want me.'

'I'm here without you, baby.'

'Somebody saw, you sleep around the town and I've got proof because the word's going around.'

'You look at me and I just die, it's like heaven arriving in my mind and I can't believe all this jealousy, I used to be a girl who could let a guy breathe.'

'When I see you smile, I can face the world, I know I can do anything, when I see you smile, I see a ray of light.'

'You are my fire, the one desire, believe when I say, I want it that way, TELL ME WHY, ain't nothing but a heartache, tell me why, ain't nothing but a mistake, tell me why, I never wanna hear you say, I want it that way, am I your fire, your one desire.'

'Quit playing games with my heart, I should have known from the start, everything I do is for you , so what is it that you can't see.'

'When I see you cry, it makes me wanna die, I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue, I love how you kiss, I love how you sound and baby, the way you make my world go 'round, and I just wanted to say I'm sorry.'

'I CAN'T GET YOU OFF MY BRAIN, that uniform you're wearing, so hot I can't stop staring, you're putting on an awesome show, air hostess, I like the way you dress, you know I hate to fly, but I feel much better, occupied my mind writing you a love letter, I messed my pants when we flew over France, gonna see you soon in my hotel room for a holiday romance, throwing peanuts down the aisle, STUPID BUT IT MADE YOU SMILE, you came over for a while, then you whispered in my ear, the words that I long to hear, I want you to thrill me here.'

'Sweating all over your video, watching every single scene in slow mo, tracking you down on the Internet cos I ain't seen you naked yet, I want you, Britney, I need you here with me, I even know the place that you live and I don't care who your boyfriend is cos one day its gonna be me, and I think that I'm obsessed with you now, cos I copy everything that you do now, and Pepsi lets me taste you, you say that you're not a girl, but I'll make you a woman, what the hell can I do, to get closer to you, you can run you can't hide, I'll make you feel good inside.'

'I hate when you think that I don't blow you away, I can't breakthrough that way, our friends told us we wouldn't last for the week, I guess they think that I'm a freak, they hated my blue streak, why does it feel like it's raining in my head, I don't understand, why are you always complaining about me, you don't even know who I am.'

'I asked you to dance at the disco, but you said no, the whole world was watching and laughing on the day when I crashed and burned at your feet, you think that I'm nothing, ask your sister what you're missing.'

'And I'm glad I crashed the wedding, its better than regretting, I could have been a loser kid, who ran away and hid.'

'I'm really falling for you, I hate what you're putting me through, what have you done to me now, I just can't sleep at night, I guess she found it funny when I said hello honey, the piercing in her belly, IT TURNED MY LEGS TO JELLY.'

'We ran in slow motion, over the sand, into the ocean, holding your hand, but then it gets hazy and I lose you and that's when I realize I'm a loner in love, that's the reason why my life sucks very much, being a loner in love, the next day I ran into your ex-boyfriend, told him what we did last night, before my story had even got to the end, he challenged me to a fight, I ran in slow motion away from him, but he caught up with me, kicked my teeth in, now I've got no chance cos I can't even grin.'

'I'm waiting for the perfect time to call you back cos I remember saying, don't wanna know the truth, can't handle that and I try to just forget you, but I don't know how, if only I knew, it's written all over your face, such a painful thing to waste, tell me now, where do we go, now the future's not so clear, can't believe we'd end it here, MAYBE I CAN MEET YOU THERE.'

'You ran for school election, you even got my vote, my favourite pastime's poetry, just because I'm nerdy and my friends are funny, doesn't mean that I swing that way.'

'She's my psycho girl, my psycho girlfriend, everything I say, she takes it the wrong way, my living nightmare, she's everything I need but I can't stand her.'

'BABY, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY, IT'S LIKE THAT EVERYDAY, I'VE NEVER FELT THIS WAY, I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, IF I CAN'T BE WITH YOU, YOU KNOW IT'S TRUE, I LOVE THAT THING YOU DO, last night we did it in a waterfall.'

'I fought my way way to the front of class, to get the best view of her ass, I drop the pencil on the floor, she bends down and shows me more, that's what I go to school for, even though it is a real bore, you can call me crazy, but I know that she craves me, that's what I go to school for, even though it is a real bore, girlfriends I've had plenty, but none like Miss Mackenzie, I could see that YOU WANTED MORE WHEN YOU TOLD ME I'M WHAT YOU GO TO SCHOOL FOR.'

'One day, when I came home at lunchtime, I heard a funny noise, went out to the backyard, to find out if it was one of those rowdy boys, stood there with my neighbour called Peter and a Flux Capacitor, he told me he built a time machine like one in the film I've seen, he said I've been to the year 3000, not much has changed, but they lived underwater and your great- great-great granddaughter is pretty fine, he took me to the future in the Flux thing, I took a trip to the year 3000, this song had gone multi-platinum, everybody bought our seventh album, IT HAD OUTSOLD MICHAEL JACKSON.'

'Come on over, baby, hey boy, don't you know I got something going on, I've got an invitation, don't you keep me waiting all night long, I know you know, so baby don't pretend you won't, all I want is you, you know you make me go crazy, now baby, don't be shy, you better cross the line, I can't help myself when you put your hands on me, it's paradise when you and I get close, get tight.'

'Take time to REALIZE that your voice is crashing down on in, take time to realize that I am on your side, didn't I, didn't I tell you, but I can't spell it out for you, no, it's never gonna be that simple, if you just realize what I just realized, we'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now.'

'Just don't talk too much, you so cute, you don't have to say a word, cos you sweeter than apple pie, everything that you want you got, girl, you know that you need to stop.'

'You have stolen my heart.'

'I get a high whenever you're around, you are my sugar rush, I've got a sweet tooth and I taste for you.'

'You cried, I wipe away all your tears, you scream, I fight away all your fears.'

'It's time to be a big girl now, and big girls don't cry.'

'G.L.A.M.O.R.O.U.S.'

'It can happen to anyone of us, anyone you think of, anyone can fall, anyone can hurt someone they love, hearts will break cos I made a stupid mistake.'

'You're a true friend.'

'I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend.'

'Just so you know, this feeling's taking control of me, and I can't help it, I won't sit around, I can't let him win now, thought you should know, I tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to.'

'I'm leavin' never to come back again, DON'T STRESS, DON'T STRESS, DON'T STRESS, JUST TELL THEM TO THE LEFT, LEFT, LEFT, don't stress, don't stress, don't stress, cos we're gone and we're gone and we're gone, no stress, no stress, no stress, girl, you deserve nothing but the best.'

'She could be a supermodel in every magazine cover, but she won't mean a thing to me cos she's no you.'

'Say what you need to say.'

'If you want love, we'll make it, swim in a deep sea of blankets, your body is a wonderland.'

'I'm hot, you're cold, you go around like you know, who I am, but you don't, you've got me on my toes, I'm burnin' up for you, baby.'

'You're hot then you're cold, you're yes then you're no, you're in then you're out, you're up then you're down, you're wrong when it's right, it's black then it's white, we fight we break up, we kiss, we make out.'

'I kissed a girl and I liked it, the taste of her cherry Chapstick, us girls, we are so magical, soft skin, red lips, so kissable, hard to resist, so touchable, too good to deny it.'

'Just dance, gonna be okay.'

'But when I think about it, I'm so in love with her every other time, but then I think about the time when we broke up before the prom and you told everyone that I was gay, OKAY, sometimes I walk around the town, and I settle down to take you back, you kick me down cos that's the way uh huh uh huh I like it.'

'Cos it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do, nothing to lose.'

'I'LL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES, TO TURN THIS AROUND, I KNOW I SHOULD STAY, I KNOW THAT I'VE LET YOU DOWN.'

'Time is waiting, we only got four minutes to save the world.'

'There can be miracles when you believe.'

'You'll always be my baby.'

'Say it again for me, cos I love the way it feels when you're telling me that I'm the only one that blows your mind.'

'Sunday morning, rain is falling.'

'Was I just another ghost that's been in your bed ?'

'The heart never lies.'

'Your body's cold but we're getting so warm, and I was thinking of ways that I could get inside, we're on the bed but your clothes are laying right there, shake shake shake shake shake shake shake shake it.'

'It's okay, it's alright, I got something that you're gonna like.'

'You're my baby, baby, baby love.'

'Don't look back in anger.'

'You're my liquid dream.'

'It's too late to apologize.'

'But my thoughts you can't decode.'

'You are my only one, I'd scream my lungs out to try to get to you.'

'Sexy, can I.'

'And I know that he knows that I'm unfaithful and it kills me inside.'

'When you say nothing at all' ( eh, what the hell ?! hee ).

'Truly, madly, deeply.'

'I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you're gone.'

'Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you, all over again, don't make me change my mind, cos a girl like you is impossible to find.'

'I'll give you my dirty little secret.'

'I'm addicted to you.'

'I'm sorry I can't be perfect.'

'Kiss me beneath the milky twilight.'

'I try to be perfect, but nothing was worth it.'

'For you I will.'

'Would you catch me if I had to fall ?' ( I'm not giving you 5 bucks ! )

'It will all get better in time.'

'How to save a life.'

'Stop and stare, you start to wonder why you're here not there.'

'You're the best I ever had.'

'When you're looking like that.'

'I will always love you.'

Stefira's story was written @ 6:03 PM