Once upon a time, a girl was born. She was called Stefira.
She was sent to Earth to fall in love with Leo DiCaprio on 04051992
Some say she's scary but she wants everyone to know that she's just your average teenage girl.
She reads. A lot. Therefore, reading is cool.
She is married to David Archuleta, Leo, Edward, Johnny Depp, Ryan Reynolds and more. Ha!
She dislikes Farah's pet sheep//cat because she thinks that the pet is such a snob.
All information was correct at time of press.
Songbird.
♥ Hey Stephen, Stefira!
I know looks can be deceiving, but I know I saw a light in you
but i know you SEE a light in ME.
I honestly DO NOT KNOW whether to be proud or ashamed to admit that Karin the Fam, despite her masalahness can actually say things that are quite thought-provoking. I mean, this is the same bugger who's addicted to Spore and left me to die ALONE ONLINE. But her recent post, the death one, is something I've experienced myself, for real.
I remember going to one of my dad's side's relative whom I didn't really know or remember even until now, I mean I don't know WHO died, but someone did and it was someone in my family that I really didn't know. Me, my dad and my mum attended the funeral thingy. I remember being SO COLD-HEARTED, so inconsiderate because I thought to myself, back then, why am I here ? It's just someone I don't know, even IF I am related to him. I hardly see him. I don't know what's he like when he was alive. He didn't affect my life in any way whatsoever, so why am I here ?
It was a death within my family and yet, I remained unaffected and uncaring. I was so heartless. Gosh, I can't believe myself. It is true what Karin says, nothing actually does affectyou unless it happens to you, especially death to someone you know or love, trust ME, I know. You always think, unknowingly, 'Oh, this wouldn't happen to me. I mean, sheesh, what are the chances of waking up and finding my dad gone or anyone else I know ? It's just SO unlikely. Nahh, it wouldn't happen to me now, or tomorrow or the day after or ever'.
But when you really ARE hit in the face with a death of someone you love or know, you should know that it really is something that will change how you are, how you will be, everything you were or could have been will be altered. It wouldn't be the same. Death affects someone greatly, even if the person themselves wouldn't admit it or don'trealise it. It changes how you see things, it changes everything you were BEFORE the person died. You will also try to cling on to every memory you ever had with that person because you don't want to lose it, you don't want that person to be out of your life in any way whatsoever. Something will almost always remind you of that person. Or if you were doing something you used to love doing with that person AFTER that person died, you will wish he/she was right there with you to enjoy it like you always did.
At first, it feels as if he/she just went away for a while, like on vacation, except you know that this vacation is forever, in your heart. After some time, you'll come to realise that he/she is never ever coming back, no matter how you cry your eyes out, miss them, anything, nothing isn't going to bring them back and you realise that you have lost someone that meant very much to you. From what I've learnt it's never to take something or someone or ANYTHINGfor granted. Don't EVER EVER EVER think they'll always be there when you wake up for breakfast, be there for you on your first day of school. There is always the chance of losing them hovering over you because that is how life is. Expect the unexpected and all that, except I really didn't expect the unexpected when it happened. Don't EVER say things or do things you might regret. I'm STILL FREAKING working on that. Never let the last thing you say to someone be something mean. You will regret it all your life. In other words, just be nice to the person you love or at least, just tell them every now and then. Let them know you love them and care for them, it's utterly important. Trust me, I know what it's like. I was changed.
You will remember every detail of the day they died. You might also live wondering if things would have been different if he/she was around, if YOU could have been a whole differentperson with a different personality than this one now. I know I have done that. You will want to know if they know how things are going on here on the living side, I've been told that those who have gone, do know what's going on and I still believe that.
About Karin's post about those poor people having more kids than they could afford, well, I just freaking agree and have always thought so. When I asked my mum, 'Why do they have SO MANY children if they know they can't afford so many mouths to feed, then turn up on some TV show asking for financial help ? Isn't that bongok ?' My mum : They've nothing to entertain themselves with lah, no TV and all. Now, THAT is a bad mental image okay. Sheesh, thanks Meh.
KARIN FAM, if you're reading this, STOP calling him my boytoy and you officially inspired me to write all this. Now.... FORGET I ever said that. =D
'There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again, sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there, some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit, sometimes I just want to hide cos it's you I miss, are you looking down upon me, are you proud of who I am ?, if I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that I missed you since you went away' - Christina Aguilera ; Hurt.
