Loves, Stefira.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Hmmm =D

I realise that I still matter to some extent to my primary school besties, Nas Syahirah, Nadiah and Kimmie. I was besties with Nas first, back in Standard 4. I lived a floor above her in our condo. Our mums were friends. I know her whole family. They all know me. We were really close, practically joined at the hip kind of close. She was like me in most ways, loud and chaotic ! Our teachers say we make the most havoc in a class. There was one time, she was made class monitor and me, assisstant class monitor ; our teacher's reaction was : 'Habislah kelas nih. Huru-hara awak berdua buat nanti'. =D She might have a grain of truth there. But me and Nas pulled through that year. She was utterly loyal though. There was a time when I didn't bring my science activity book and whoever didn't pass it up will get their hands caned. She pretended not to bring hers, so she would get caned with me. I went on holidays with her. It was like a story book friendship. We went everywhere together, joined everything together.
But like a story book, our best friendship was swayed by another classmate of ours in Standard 5. A lot of crap happened in primary school, to me, that is. However, 4 years later, we're still in contact. We had a long MSN chat the other day. Found out a LOT of interesting new things about her that I wouldn't have expected back then. She has changed in some ways, but I can truly say she changed for the best. She is a better person and will always be, hopefully. Oh, Nas also said that I used to hate Busted ! I must have been really mentally disturbed back then ! Goshh.

Nadiah was a total polar opposite of me. I never really knew what made us stick together though. She as quiet which I wasn't, she was smart which I wasn't, she was everything I wasn't. Reminds me of my sister, Elfira whom I never actually knew, though what I know of her personality is what my mum told me. Me and Nad were close in Standard 6. We were close, but wasn't like the me and Nas kind of extent. She was more a listener than a talker. Nas and me were very similar. However, Nad was really good friend. Recently, she made me realise I still matter to her too. She wrote an essay about me. Who would write and essay about your best friend THREE years ago ? She did. It told me I made a difference in her life. It made me realise I will remember her and Nas always. The both of them would always remind me now that I have always been guy-crazy since primary school ! =D

Kimmie was my neighbour as well. She lived in the next block. We just bonded in Standard 6 as well. She came over every single day to have lunch at my place, then we would go swimming after having pancakes for tea. She's a strong girl, emotionally. I can see all that she hides. She doesn't tell, but I know. When she does break down, it's only then that I see how vulnerable she really is. She isn't all she seems to be, in a good way. She's loyal. She calls me every now and then. We text each other every other time. She told me that every time she sees a fantasy movie, she remembers me.

These people, these friends I still keep in touch with, not to say that I don't keep in touch with my other primary school friends, but they are the close ones lah, they are the ones who helped shape me as I am now, they made a difference, they left a mark. I know I will remember them, regardlessly. We all know more or less what's going on with each other. I hope we remain that way; always linked even though far apart.

THAT was years ago's friendship that lasts till now. Now's friendship has yet to withstand time's test, so I can't actually say who will stay, who will leave, who will forget, who will remember, but I know my friends matter A WHOLE LOT to me now. I hope we all last yeah ? =D

Yesterday evening, Kee gave me a freaking heart attack because he called me. The call was because he THOUGHT that I was confirmedly going to his 16th birthday party thing on the 12th of December. Then, Tim told him I'm most probably not going, hence the call. I mean, the deal is me and Kee have been schoolmates since Form 1 lah, of course, but we've always been on hi-bye terms, you know. I felt truly honoured when he invited me, but to call me PERSONALLY and ask me WHY I can't come, well, I just find that really thoughtful and sweet of him to do. Weird thing is, he remembered that my mum said he was cute back in Form 1. =.= He was like 'Tell your mum, it's me, Kee'. Aihhhh. Penaaat. If it was David saying that... DANG IT. Heee. So yeah, still ain't sure about going.

There's this issue that's been bugging ME. My MSN display picture says 'What do I want from Breaking Dawn ? Easy. At least 2-3 descriptive pages of how Edward Cullen looks like naked.' The moment I saw that icon, I knew deep in my heart that it was made just for me. Despite that revelation of mine, ever since I used it as my display picture, I've been called a pervert ! Meannnnnn weyh ! That is ridiculous okay.

I don't dig. First, I'm NOT a perv for using that as my display picture. I'm just putting what I think there ! Second, I know you people who have been saying I'm a perv, SECRETLY want to know how Edward looks like undressed too, okayh please ? I mean, you aren't human if you didn't. Third, if anyone is penat-ed of me being obsessed with HOT guys, then just put it this way : Stef's just appreciating God's beautiful creations in a more outright way by talking about them. I mean, we should appreciate what is THERE and be grateful, shouldn't we ? See the bright side and all that. If you can't have what you want, you can always admire ! Duh. =D Besides, I must say, 2-3 pages is hardly enough ! Heeeee. Ignore that, if you will.

Since I'm eating pau, does anyone actually know why paus have this kind of smooth layer on it that we have to peel off ? I mean, what's the motive of it being there ? I'm just curious.

'If you can't convince, confuse'.

Stefira's story was written @ 1:06 AM